I wish I was back there again
When everything was unfair again
Before I ever realised
That i am to blame for my mistakes
It makes sense that I grew out of this
But the truth thats coming out with this
Is that I am painfully aware a drunken kiss
Means more to some than me
Experience has uneasily
Constructed boundaries precariously
With nefarious uncertainty
That I could topple them any minute
So to cross a line that I can not return
Is it worth it for lessons learned
Because right now I fear a burn
From eyes filled with scorn and hate
So I guess I must wait patiently
For I daren’t live life so garishly
To be so brash and thrash the reigns securing me
To both sanity and social approval
I’m trying to answer questions
That I have yet to process
I confess I haven’t noticed
The tears upon your dress
I’m obsessed with this mess
So time to get off my chest
All these problems that are pressed
Onto my shoulders, before I digress
My problems are that my face falters
When I relax, expression alters
Smiles slip away from me
When I feel like I’m at peace
A piece of me is then a target
As I now look, like I face a hardship
I revert inside my head
and let my features drop
When I’m not talking
My minds probably walking
To some far away place
That it won’t ever want to come back
But you’ll drag me back
With conversation
and I try to hide my exasperation
It’s not that I don’t enjoy yourself
But I prefer myself alot more
I’m selfish
But maintained quite easily
Needs appeased with greed
Where words come free to me
I purchase what i need
Then feed on juicy text
That drips quite greasily
and write with the scraps I’ve left over
I have never wanted a touch screen phone until I found draw something… now I need one >.> even though I’ll break the phone and hate texting on it >.>
Drained like a well that has not seen water for months
Blurry eyed like a man who has a few too many in his system
Mouth gaping like a cheap hooker on her knees
Praying for easy money
Muscles aching like a father carrying a dying son to hospital
Restless like a serial killer preparing for his victim
I guess I’m trying to say I’m tired
It’s hard to date a poet
Every word is double edged
Every compliment a truth
and every truth a tear
trying to escape
Every verse that we converse
Will be about you
Or at least related to you
Because we think about you
Constantly
You inspire us
But we’re filled with so much venom
Entwined with so much beauty
That our sick twisted words
Will touch your heart
Then burn it from the inside
We’re a breed of people
That will hang on to your every word
Listen to everything you have to say
Then analyse every syllable
Every stutter
Trying to read a message that was never there
enough of that now…Eminem will make me feel manly (y)
dear god childrens tv… it’s been far too long~ <3
I’m a million miles away
In a place I call my head
It’s hours away from anyone I know
and always seems too far away from bed
It’s filled with words
Too many words
That hang fresh from the vine
It’s hard to know which ones to pick
and blend together to be mine
Little miss
Mystically missed
a cold morning mist
and could not resist
A small house fire
and was amazed
The blaze
did raise the haze
That she was late for
earlier that morning
An inferno it blazes
Inside of my skull
Waging war in my mind
and my 45. is full
The chamber is rolling
Because the trigger I’ve pulled
and I can’t let go now
These demons I’ll cull
With all these bottles i’ve got
Because that’s how I’ll warm my veins
It’s insane that i’m drained
From fighting myself all day
I unload my thoughts onto you
and it’s only me that will pay
and as you walk away
I try and lash out till you stay
But just like last time you’ll leave
and your scars will remind you of me
I guess it’s better for you
I know that now you’ll be free
Free of feeling my feelings
That I can’t handle myself
So I’d just handle you
and hope that you’d blame yourself
For being a burden on me
When you kept me alive
I strived to be a part of your life
and now we’re apart and i’m aching
How am I meant to survive?
These curtains are closing
and I’m taking my final bow
Don’t blame yourself for this
I’m just helping you out
I’m making sure that I go
So you can’t hold onto me
So I cling to this window sill
So I can set myself free
and as I start to fall
Looking at the sky, so blue
The wind it kisses my neck
and it reminds me of you
It’s fucking savage, Rockstar you’ve done it again,
because he ate his pizza before it was cool.
Fuck the queue, what did it ever do for me?
Let me say a truth
Haiku is to Poetry
Like birdsong to farts
Past a point of desperation
Where I’m sure it no longer seems like I care
I just can’t help the fact
That this pain is always there
Everyday we deal with this
and everyday it’s back
I talked you through it so many times
and now patience is what I lack
I care about you more than you know
and I hope you care about me
But you still have this pain
and for me it’s plain to see
Your pain is like an identity
and without it you are lost
So you live with this pain everyday
but I ask you now, at what cost?
